So I already wrote one today but I just got the feeling to write another. I just read something a friend wrote and it made me remeber high school. High school was nothing what I was told it would be. People say in highschool things are awesome that you make life long friends that you will regret missing anything, so I tried to do everything. When fridays rolled around I wore green and gold/yellow for spirt days, I went to all the dances, I went to the football games. I pushed myself to be involed as much as I could. My high school memories were not really good. I remember when my sister was in high school how every day she came hope happy, she had school spirt, she had amazing dance stories. I felt out of place, I would dress up but I would be the only one out of my friends to dress up, I could never get people to go to the dances with me and if I did happen to get my friends to go they wouldnt wanna dance or even on my senior prom I had one of my girl friends go with me and I barley saw her at the dance she left me so I had to look around for people to be with and when I found theatre friends I didnt fit it. I felt like i was the one just sitting back because I didnt have my friends there. When it was time to graduate I didnt cry, I wasnt around my friends the few friends I still had by graduation either had there other friends to be with or were still in highschool. When I look back at the pictures I took I dont think of good times I think of oh I dont talk to this person anymore or I try to talk to them and they dont reply. Iwish I had the memories other people have to go home and be so excited to see the people I missed while I was at college, sure I still do have 2 friends that are still close to me but they have there own lives going on. When I went home for winter break I sat in my house with my mom. I guess my life is not turning out what I always dreamed it would be like but in reality I guess it doesnt always turn out as you would hope.
